Hatred "Love"

I loved a girl…
She was so dear,
She knew how to deal with a stone being a stone…
And she knew how to be a rose to a rose,
She called it “attitude” which I liked once…
Maybe I lacked it in me somewhere!!
Being a friend she gave me solace many a times…
In pain, in isolation, in confusion,
And whenever I wanted,
She was a strong support I looked at then…
I trusted her like a child trusts his mother,
Presence of her in my life- changed me a lot!
I ate on time, slept on time;
Even I behaved like a human like never before…
Days passed, I spent them watching her, thinking about her…
Somewhere deep in my mind I started loving her!
When I told her so, she thought…
She thought of it for months!!
She had choices to pick from,
She carefully picked me and said “yes”
So delighted was I then-
There began a new life of me,
I started chasing dreams I had once…
Left undone somewhere in the past
Started living life that I missed and lacked!
Her simple words became my strength…

But somewhere she always had choices to pick from…
She picked me, I don’t know why…
Maybe an easy prey then was I!
Days passed, I spent them watching her, thinking about her…
Somewhere deep in my mind I started loving her even more!!
Like a chump, she left me all of the sudden…
Like I was some downtrodden!
“You are not the right one”
said she
The only question I could ask myself-
“was she?”

She made mockery out of me-
Still I loved her….like a chump!!
She loved me just to say-
Had fun and left when done!
She had her own dreams to chase…
She aspired… status, money, comfy and cozy
None but just love I had back then!
Now when she’s gone…
She’ll see who’s got the status and money now-
And who’s comfy and cozy!!
Something’s never change…
When I now see my beloved bitch,
Picking her choices up in a ditch-
One after another…and another…and another!!
I realize …
It’s not me who was confused!
It’s not me who lacked!!
It’s not me who was wrong!
It’s not me who lied!!

I love her still…
But that love is what I hate NOW!!!
Love is deepest of all shades…
But this hatred “Love” never fades!!!